Why I Write

If didn't put my hands on this pen...

I might end up in the state pen,

Cause my emotions may get the better of me..

So I express myself this way and remain free.

I write to share a cautionary tale,

To keep another black man out of jail.

I write cause I've found that my anger has words that are stronger than my fists,

and sharper than knives.

Words that when put on paper.... just spring alive.

So I am careful to choose the words that I use,

Cause if it comes out of my mouth...then it comes out of my heart...

And if it comes out of my heart....well .....well then I expose myself, 

And you'll know who I am.........EVEN IF I DON"T.......

That's kind of deep, I hope you got that,

Cause before you get up and GO, you ought to know where you're AT.

Therefore I write,I write to see what's inside of me,

I write to forecast what tomorrow will be.

So please permit me to speak the words peace and prosperity.

I write to account for time, time that could be lost in jail,

I need something positive to share and know that I did not fail.

I write to use my setback to make a leap forward,

and land on that place which is my destiny...

That special place that God has prepared for me...

Once again permit me to speak the words peace and prosperity.

I write to purge my soul and leave the past back there,

But never forget the lessons that got me here.

You see bitter medicine can be a sweet cure,

but with a bitter mind...you will never open the door...

The door that leads to a place where everything is much better than before.

I write cause I don't want my thoughts captured and in jail,

struggling to get out......

A prisoner of my mind and of what comes out my mouth.

I know that this will fly over a few heads..but it will also land on a few...

So for you I pray to God that you will write too....

Write of your wildest dreams for they can come true.

No one's standing in your way, no one but YOU.

So let us write to our futures, the pen is in your hand,

You can get what you write, I hope you understand.

You see Biggie was "Ready to Die" and so he did, 

And his "Life After Death" well that's an eternal bid.

'Pac wondered if "Heaven had a Ghetto",

And while the answer is NO, he conjured it up, so it was his time to go.

So let us speak greatness into our lives, let us write, let us write to make this more than a song.

Let us write to correct all that is wrong.

Let us write the tale, the tale of how a boy became a man,

and how these few little words helped you to understand your power, you are a King.

That's right there is a King in you. And no matter what they say....

You are better than this, you were not born this way.

You are a child of God, a husband, a father, a provider, a teacher.

A leader in your community, an example of what a real man is supposed to be.

You can write what you wish and watch it come true, it's all up to you....

So I pray in Jesus’ name that you would write too.

R. Sealy.

French Connect

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The french connect is still in my head as the little me sleeps in his bed,
so i asked the lord to give me some guidance and this is what he said,
"just speak from the heart and listen to your conscience and you'll be fine,
have some discipline, stay the course, failure to do so and you'll pay the cost,
do unto others...you know the rest, that's the best advice if you want to pass my test,
don't need ten when one will do, but 1+0=1, and 1+1 makes another one of you,
listen to your kids before they become like you, they've got that wisdom that you once had too,
before you fell for his tricks, and with that liar you cast your lot,
he's trying to claim your prize, but you can't see since you've never really opened your eyes,
or is it eye, as in pineal, you know the red dot that you laugh at, but you'll always be blind till you wake that,
but it's never too late, and success is guaranteed, but how long will it take,
it all depends on you, do it now or do it later, depends on whenever you choose to be greater"
Damn the french connect is fading,.... what did that shit mean..makes no fucking sense..I need to stop drinking.....finally back to my senses, or am I....

This n That

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 I didn't know betta, I swore that this chick was MO betta,
but she was on da hustle, what you'd call a go getta,
getta as in getta fool to .................sex was goos so I letta...
let her feel on top..............like I would always letta...
let her get away with this, and a lot of dat...
let her feel that she was way on top of her MACK,
But my status was G and her "tight" became slack....
Bitch done fell down the stairs..n fucked up her back..
but i couldn't feel her pain cause only bitterness remained...
so I gave it a few weeks but my feelings were the same.....
where did I go wrong i needed to know,
 when did my wife turn into to a..........
..bitter, angry person, who held contempt,
and there was no coming back, irregardless of attempt,
now my status is O...oh why me, oh how could she, oh fuck these hoes,
but theres always two sides and if i wore her shoes, what would i do...
if I felt unwanted, undesired and irrelevant, and unappreciated
would I I fall prey to those who pray,
pray for those with insecurities,
 say the right words and then they on their knees,
laughing to they self while she licks on these.......
while you at home like "baby call me back please"
DAMN....I cant handle the thought, hurts like hell.....
but my heart is now stone, so I'm like oh well....
Now my status is D..as in the end of the relationship..
now i'll partner with the G O D, and build myself MO BETTA....
cause everything happens for a reason,
life lessons prepare you for the next season......
what would you do when your mate commits treason,
and lies in your face like you didn't know betta,
would you play along and just lettum,
lettum get away with this and a lot of that.....

Fathers Day

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Yesterday was Fathers Day and although I am one not to easily succumb to society's holidays and customs without skepticism, I must admit that I have some appreciation for this day, call it selfishness I guess.

I found myself at church on Sunday morning after personally avowing to not enter any building associated with any type of organized religion about 8 years ago. I was then and still am now of the opinion that any group that excludes everyone who does not subscribe to their belief system as being damned and destined to burn in purgatory for all eternity.........well let's just say that as a black man, I find this thought process not too far from racism, segregation etc.... and most likely not originating from the all loving Creator of all, which they supposedly have the only legitimate link too. I must admit that the service was excellent and the message was inspiring and at times ( cliche coming....) seemed to be aimed directly at me. Over all I definitely benefited from my visit to the Brooklyn Tabernacle, and think that I shall visit again.

Unfortunately my 13 year old had other plans on Fathers Day, so I had to settle for receiving the most text messages I have ever got from her in one day ( I liked it ). So it was up to my 4 year old son and I to enjoy this day together...the major highlight of which was our viewing of Toy Story 3 (in 3d of course). I must say this movie was excellent and in my opinion, would be much more appreciated by adults than kids. I will never look at a teddy bear with innocence any longer ( go see it and substitute teddy bear with a mammal of your choice ). I am sure I would have enjoyed the film even more had my son not dropped his 3d glasses somewhere I couldn't find it at about two thirds through the film, so I had to give him my glasses and enjoy the rest of the film in all of it's blurry splendor, which you too can experience by taking those 3d shades off. did i mention that the film was excellent.

Next we were of to a friend's home for dinner (and noggin nick jr.)...then home to more noggin nick jr. some lite conversation and some astounding philosophy coming from this youngster (which I will share at another time). Then off to bed and a few more messages from my daughter......sounds like Fathers Day is just like any other day for the Real Dads out there.........

BLIND

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As I rise and reminisce, I can't help but think of the opportunities I've missed,
or more fittingly squandered, yet still, more seem to pop up each day,
but true to my nature I seem to let them slip away
..or not even recognize, since my blessings always wear a disguise...and are not visible to this common man's eyes, so for shallow thoughts, I can not claim my prize.............................
I only saw what was in front of me and never what was inside of me,
and since what was in front of me was what was inside of me
God had to intervene and put things in order, using tools like Ness n Dex to prepare me for what's coming up next.
So I close my eyes so that eye can see exactly what IS in front of me
and ask for guidance so I'll know exactly what to do with the blessing that I'll just call you.

Cant .wait to see this

http://vimeo.com/11318238

Who am I, Why an I here, Will the Celtics win the championship, Will Lebron join the Knicks....while this film does not answer all of my questions, I am interested to find the answers that these people furnished.

Michael Jackson - Man In The Mirror

Today will be.....(You get to fill in the blank)

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Today will be excellent because I want it to be, and God in his/her/their/it's ultimate love have given us the ability to directly impact our outcomes and experiences based simply our thoughts. It is probably much more complicated than that statement, however I have learned through my personal experience that simply envisioning and thinking of what you want as well as undoubtedly knowing that everything will be fine, it simply will be. So as I learn to tap into this immense power (that is available to us all) and harness it for the benefit of everyone I encounter, I urge you to do one simple thing.....CHOOSE YOUR ATTITUDE....whether you believe it or not, many laws of providence are in play and your choice of words, deeds, and thoughts are going to impact your lives each and every day, including your finances, relationships and health. Lastly have a great day i.e. if you choose to........

WHEN TO SPEAK

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Speak when spoken to, I bet you are broke if your friends are broken too, don't park there, your whip might get broke in to, damn you look like me, are you a token too, does this make sense, i guess you've been smokin' too, nah I don't puff, but I stays jokin' to.....escape the reality or fakality...depends on which side of the glass you are at.....There I spoke, now dare I speak..when not spoken to..

TOUGH TIMES

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They say tough times don't last, but tough people do........this is hard to believe when tough times have hit you......and you are clueless of your next step, never thought about your previous step... something inside goes "I told you so"...and your friends have all disappeared.. a while ago..... saying to each other "I told you so",but they never told you...oh, YOU don't get off that easy.....you are simply victim of YOU, not the hypocrites YOU chose to make friends.....now do your means justify your end......TheEnd........hold up wait a minute.....or two..you're still here, all is not lost..but for poor decisions..you must pay the cost...now can you stand like a man..can you cry like a man..can you reach out for help like a man...can you be stoic like a man..can you ACT like a man..or :are you just a man...listen to your spirit......that intelligence unobstructed by YOUR thoughts...maybe it will turn out better than you thought...but don't take my advice take theirs...Tough times don't last....

FLEX

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As I flex, my biceps burst thru my undersized shirt, and I can't help to notice that my soul seldom hurts, the way my muscles pain after enduring all that strain, but you know how it goes, no pain, no gain. I guess that's why I'm an spiritual child in a body that's way beyond juvenile, but ignorance is bliss since you never know what you've missed, and life seems good cause..... every time I flex ...its time to have sex..and after I'm done, for a brief moment I wonder what's next.....hmm....but then I flex...its time to have sex...again and again cause I asked to "doc" for cialis and never stopped to SEE ALL THIS,,,,,See what my life has become...hmm..not to bad, thank GOD, but far from what it could be, thank Me. So I take time to re-evaluate, make slow decisions and take swift actions, leave people shocked!!!!!damn!!!! I guess I'm the #1 stunner, you lost a good man, what a bummer, But I can't look back if I am to progress, since looking back seems to generate stress, but looking back seems to teach the best, so I will cautiously review as I diligently preview my next steps...STOP!!!! PAUSE!!!! THINK!!!! My best results seem to have always occurred when I stopped to listen... listen to my instinct, to my spirit, to the GOD in me...... (yeah right, this nigga thinks that GOD is in him, lol)........................................
But how do I listen with all these distractions...work, school, him, her, con, ed, light, bill, he, she, key, span, email, spam, face, book, got, took, my, space, aim, high, feeling, low, kids, crying, media, lying, life, dying, Me, me,Me, WHAT..ME...ME...yeah you, who ME...nah it couldn't be me, this is a set up, a no win situation, designed to keep me down...Damn I'm so stressed....so I FLEX.....you know the rest..........cause it couldn't be ME................

Empire State Building from Brooklyn Bridge

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Brooklyn NY Sunset